My psilocybin journey interrupted by an unexpected moment of chaos, and the profound insights about connection, forgiveness, and what truly matters in life that emerged from processing pain and fear through synesthetic experience.
I’m responsible for what I say, not for what you understand.
Thanks to Craig Sailor for the photo.
This was a disturbing comment to see show up in my YouTube comments feed today. I was talking about Daniel Naroditsky, a chess player who was falsely accused of cheating by ex-world champion Vladamir Kramnik. Daniel sadly died six months after I left this comment, shortly after receiving another attack from Vladamir Kramnik.
The blood moon from Tempelhoferfeld in Berlin.
The kindest thing we can do for each other, is often to provide helpful criticism. And the kindest thing we can do for ourselves, is to accept that criticism. – Ryan Hellyer – during an internal Syde company meeting 2025
This is my personal archive for photos, videos, and stories from my life. I'm from New Zealand, now living in Berlin where I work as a software engineer after previously being a scientist. I like sharing my experiences online and have interests in open source projects and psychedelics. Read more on my geek blog. I'm not available for paid web development.
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